So, This week I'm at Atlantic Beach and I'm having a great time so far! Dad and Chaos (14 month old Pit Bull) and I came down on Saturday evening and Dad stayed from Saturday till Tuesday. Megan and Zack came down on Tuesday and stayed overnight. They left this morning (Wednesday) and took Chaos with them. Chaos enjoyed the beach so much! Even though, he had to be on a leash anytime we were outside. Last night he was able to run down the beach with Zack and so few people were on the beach, that we let him run loose. Chaos has loved every minute of being here.
After everyone left, I took a nap. I got sunburned on Monday so I wasn't in a big hurry to get outside during the hottest part of the day. So - I waited till about 3:30 and went out. I walked down the beach toward the entry to the sound and picked up a few shells. Funny thing I was only interested in ones that had rolled around in the surf until they were smooth. The first one was all white and looked like a guitar pick. It was so cool. As I was walking back passed Fort Macon, I started praying. I hate that I've not prayed much lately as lately is when I've needed to pray. I started praising God for all the blessings that I have, even though I know the flesh has been so weak and sad for the past few years. So much change. I can honestly say that although I haven't heard the voice of God, he truly spoke to me today and I was open and ready to listen. I was glad I was wearing huge sunglasses as I was crying and sobbing and although very few people were on the beach, I didn't want them to wonder what the crazy lady was doing. God told me that he has blessed me (and I know this is true). He also told me that he isn't finished with me yet. That like the smooth seashell that I preferred, I've had to roll around in the surf of misery and despair to become a stronger better Christian and person in general. It was amazing. I was this empty vessel and He was filling me up so quickly, that the emotion was too much and the tears flowed. Although I didn't feel the warmth (like a hot flash) that I had years ago in a small Church in Currituck County, I know it was the Holy Spirit that touched my soul and filled me so fully! I'm thankful to God! I will go forward differently! I will (with God's assistance) make plans for my future as I was so disgusted with my failures that I wasn't planning anymore and wasn't moving forward. I know that GOD's plan for my life will be the plan that occurs and I am supportive of his plans for my life. I will pray that he leads me to make plans for myself in the future, instead of just making plans on my own or not making any plans at all.
So - God does live at the Beach. Or - The Beach is the place where I'm able to hear him more clearly. Praise GOD and thank you Father for your love, understanding and patience with me. I will learn to be more receptive to you and your blessings in the future.
GOD bless you all and I love you all!
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